Hope this makes you feel better.
Went out this evenin, and made my first couple of eskimo rolls, after 3 years of tryin... Experts told me and showed me how to do it (short of beating me with a big stick) but I just couldn't do manage it. But it all came together today

. I managed the pawlata roll after about 2 years, ( the first time I did it was, through sheer anger and frustration).
I had been paddling a Perception Corsica S 12ft long, but have just bought a Prijon Luv (8ft surf/playboat). Im not sure if this helped or not, maybe it was just coincidental.
Anyway, the thing is I have finally done it after a lot of practice, numerous rescues and plenty of swimming.
Keep trying and dont give up.........